I Wish

I Wish

By: Kelly


I wish that you would understand
Even just a fraction of my heart,
My worries, my pain,
Even just a hint
Please just understand why my heart feels so heavy in my chest each day…


I wish life was like a book
Where we can clearly see the end
Where the words “and they lived happily ever after” is written at every ending
No matter the hardships,
No matter the pain
No matter how twisted things get…
They always work out.
Even a math text book would be fine…
I only wish that we can all flip to the back of the book,
And find all our answers there…


I wish I didn’t have to feel this way
This guilt that I’ve let you down,
Let myself down…
This sense of loneliness that’s buried so deep in my heart


I wish I can cry into someone’s arms,
I am tired of facing this alone…
Tired of biting back my sobs and swallowing them once again…
Tired of hiding my tears…
I’m not who you think I am,
I’m not strong; I am not the solution to all your problems…
I am not that person…
So please stop forcing me…


I wish we didn’t have to argue,
I wish we could see eye to eye
But…
No matter how hard I try
No matter how much I explain…
Our opinions never seem to match…
It’s useless, so I’ve given up,


I wish I wasn’t me,
If I could live another life,
Any other life.
It would be better than facing the reality I know now.


I wish…
I wish…
There is so many things wish for…
On stars, the moon, my tears…
But none of them are answered…
So now I have to ask myself “why bother”
As yet another tear slip now my face
All alone again…